I want to be normal again.
I want to be able to work 40 hours a week.
I want to not have to drink one drink at a time and swallow it with purpose.
I want MY voice back.
I want to not be so fatigued.

I want to know why my family doesn’t call me to find out how things are.
I want to know why my Mother doesn’t come to visit.
I want someone to understand what I’m going through.
I want to not be lonely.
I want to be strong.

I want to be willing to accept your help.
I want to be less reliant on myself for everything.
I want to not have aching bones and joints.
I want these feelings to go away.
I want to remain positive.

This is difficult.  More than you know.  More than I let you know.